Sick but blessed

Well, as per my last blog entry, I fell sick. And it was a real bad one this round. Probably 2 marathons back-to-back was too overwhelming for my body. Flu somehow got into me and I was strucked down and feeling so weak for the past 5-6 days.

But I have to say that it’s been a blessing in disguise. I guess I was so preoccupied with chores, errands, and messy thoughts in me that I missed out one important thing prior to that.  That’s right, I’ve missed out to really spend my time to just focus and meditate in God. I’ve been searching for certain answers and as much as I’ve been praying about it, I didn’t really quiet down myself, was so busy with other things, or even to stop and listen what God has to say.

So, until I fell sick, really sick this time, I couldn’t run around anymore. My body and mind were so weak till I could only cry out asking when is this gonna end.  Due to that, I couldn’t bother to think about the chores, the errands, etc. I could only cry out to God. The next thing I know, as I continue to seek God, He started revealing the many questions in my heart. There’re so many things I’ve been wanted to ask God, but I just didn’t know what exactly to ask. I know it’s all have to do with my own direction, my so called “ultimate destiny”. God then led me to pick up the book that I’ve read many years ago, Wild at Heart, by John Eldredge. I’d read that book back in my uni days. I knew it’s a very resourceful book for Christian men, but I supposed I didn’t fully aware of how it could apply in my life then.

I finished reading the whole book in 2 days (since I was sick and couldn’t be bother to do any other things). It’s been a refreshing moment reading the book again. I was truly amazed at how God has revealed so much to me through it this time round.  I found the very question that I’ve been wanted to ask, and the answer for it. On top of that, I’ve got affirmation on the things that I thought I wasn’t up for. There’re still a journey to go, but at least now I have a clearer picture on my life’s journey. I strongly recommend this book to every man,

I just got to say, God really has His own way of getting each of our attention.